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Thursday, August 7, 2008

Numbers

Well, we got our updated waitlist numbers yesterday and they are pretty much the same numbers we had before-#20 on the boys list, #25 on the girls list (we moved up one on that list somehow). I was startled to realized how disappointed I was that we hadn't moved further-I thought I was overwhelmed at how quickly things were happening and was looking forward to some time to exhale a bit and maybe even enjoy a bit of a wait so I thought I didn't have high expectations, but then my heart sank when I read our "new" numbers that really weren't new and my eyes were filled with tears for a moment. Sometimes in all of the hustle and bustle of paperwork and chaos and research of preparing for the adoption, it is easy to lose sight of what brought us here (the intense desire for another baby) and just get bogged down in details. Then, when you least expect it, that fierce desire to have that baby RIGHT. NOW. sneaks up and smacks you upside the head and heart and you feel like you are so far away from that happening, especially when you have not budged an inch on the wait list. Today was better and I was much more okay with things and I know that God has His timeline in place, but it is still hard to just want to know MORE MORE MORE about how things are going and when we might know something, anything, etc. Adoption is not for the faint of heart, that is for sure!

In other family adventures, Thing 1 had her first real sleepover with friends last night (she is 8 1/2) and my summation of sleepovers? Over. Rated. Ugh. The moaning, weeping, wailing and crabiness that ensued, AFTER her 2 hour nap from exhaustion when she got home, made for a very long day and quite possibly a Sleepover Embargo of undetermined length here at Chez Things. She did have a lot of fun, so I will give her that. (Who wouldn't have fun when you get to eat chocolate chip pancakes with chocolate syrup and ice cream for breakfast?! hello?!) And the fun mom of the friend at whose house this event took place is a Mary Kay rep so she did makeovers on all the girls, which they LOVED! So, Thing 1's assessment of the sleepover=good times.

Off to comfort poor Thing 3 who may just be perishing in her crib by the sound of her wailing "Mama!"-it is nice to mean the world to someone small :)

5 comments:

tim & dawn said...

Hmm...yeah they must have given out referrals the same day I was given my #'s. Weird. I feel like I'm the only one who moved on the list?!? Well, let's hope and pray that they are able to give out some referrals still these next 2 months!! Hang in there. I'm sure it was very disappointing to not see those #'s move. :(

~Dawn

Kristi J said...

yeah, I moved from 27 to 28..yuck!! I was disappointed too, but they said someone lost a baby...too sad!! Hopefully we'll move up soon, kristi

Skeinky said...

I know the feeling (want a baby RIGHT NOW!) Hang in there! Right now we are lining up IVF, fun times!

Eric and Michelle said...

I all to well understand those feelings.

Jana said...

I really, really understand this. We thought we actually started the process early. Meaning, we're certainly (enter sarcastic tone here) not ready for a baby now, but I'm sure we'll be ready for one when the time comes. Uggghh. I think some biochemical-hormonal response kicks in when you send in the darn application. MUST HAVE BABY NOW....